Seranade!

I've been loved, harder than anyone could ever imagine, by someone who barely loved properly. Blessing or curse, I wouldn't know. Help me help him. I can't.

This type of situation's been pretty familiar, to the point where if I don't have any breakdowns for quite a while, I would start questioning things... And... it happened today. Again. For the +++th times It was all started in the morning, and it went downhill I had this dream about that boy who quite leaves an impact, and I woke up terrified. I was having irrational thoughts, again... And I told my abang about it because he's the only person that I can talk to in this kind of situation... but sadly, he was busy  Then, I went to campus, still terrified of what might happen... And I just kept my distance from everyone there but then they decided that it's a good idea to talk to me. I went home, tired of socializing. After that, the "laundry-woman" decided to ask me for money, in the middle of my breakdown. Just. Huh... So yeah, today was not a good day. But thankfully, my abang made time to catch up with me and my conditions so that's pretty good. Y...

Recently, I've been doing something I know I shouldn't... like really shouldn't. But then again, I'm an INFJ, and as an INFJ, I feel a lot. Sometimes, it came out pretty dumb, and kind of insane... Oh well It's been a hell of a ride for the past 33 days (yes I remember the exact number), lots of tears have poured down, lots of panic attacks, lots of... yea basically not a good month. And... today is *probably* the end of the ride. I shouldn't have started this ride at all, but at that time, my heart told a different story. And that's why next time I probably shouldn't follow my heart because...it's just plain stupid, and dangerous. Dangerous? I'll tell you why It was all started with a simple question. And I responded, because honestly, how bad can it be? I was just helping him with his assignment... NO! It was called giving a second chance. He started rambling about how awful his life is since that day , how he still loves me, and so on...

we'll be separated in a moment or two it won't be x-rated or a cheap tattoo you did it you made me stop for my heart just popped it won't be long till I see you where you belong soon you will forget me and all of our memories even the day when you said you loved me like no one else Bisous, Serafina

as I lay back on the chair I saw you and I'm out of breath is it just a game? well what a shame how did we end up like this? close, yet myriads miles away not now, but about to be and that day we'll see you won't know this no, I won't let you know all of these feelings I guess it's all okay the price that I should pay has been kept for 8 straight years of love and left without tears Bisous, Serafina

My old writings are so cringy omg

don't fall in love with him you'll get hurt not your fault nor his time and circumstance are the one to blame can't help but fall deep but honey think of what are you gonna do when you both caught up and can't turn back when the whole world against and no one can fix Bisous, Serafina