Breakdowns

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This type of situation's been pretty familiar, to the point where if I don't have any breakdowns for quite a while, I would start questioning things...
And... it happened today. Again. For the +++th times

It was all started in the morning, and it went downhill
I had this dream about that boy who quite leaves an impact, and I woke up terrified. I was having irrational thoughts, again... And I told my abang about it because he's the only person that I can talk to in this kind of situation... but sadly, he was busy  Then, I went to campus, still terrified of what might happen... And I just kept my distance from everyone there but then they decided that it's a good idea to talk to me. I went home, tired of socializing. After that, the "laundry-woman" decided to ask me for money, in the middle of my breakdown. Just. Huh...

So yeah, today was not a good day.

But thankfully, my abang made time to catch up with me and my conditions so that's pretty good. Yay thanks abang for saving my ass, again.
...and this post is somehow dedicated to him

Bisous,

Serafina

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