Seranade!

Recently, I've been doing something I know I shouldn't... like really shouldn't. But then again, I'm an INFJ, and as an INFJ, I feel a lot. Sometimes, it came out pretty dumb, and kind of insane... Oh well It's been a hell of a ride for the past 33 days (yes I remember the exact number), lots of tears have poured down, lots of panic attacks, lots of... yea basically not a good month. And... today is *probably* the end of the ride. I shouldn't have started this ride at all, but at that time, my heart told a different story. And that's why next time I probably shouldn't follow my heart because...it's just plain stupid, and dangerous. Dangerous? I'll tell you why It was all started with a simple question. And I responded, because honestly, how bad can it be? I was just helping him with his assignment... NO! It was called giving a second chance. He started rambling about how awful his life is since that day , how he still loves me, and so on...

we'll be separated in a moment or two it won't be x-rated or a cheap tattoo you did it you made me stop for my heart just popped it won't be long till I see you where you belong soon you will forget me and all of our memories even the day when you said you loved me like no one else Bisous, Serafina

as I lay back on the chair I saw you and I'm out of breath is it just a game? well what a shame how did we end up like this? close, yet myriads miles away not now, but about to be and that day we'll see you won't know this no, I won't let you know all of these feelings I guess it's all okay the price that I should pay has been kept for 8 straight years of love and left without tears Bisous, Serafina

My old writings are so cringy omg

don't fall in love with him you'll get hurt not your fault nor his time and circumstance are the one to blame can't help but fall deep but honey think of what are you gonna do when you both caught up and can't turn back when the whole world against and no one can fix Bisous, Serafina

Most times, I don't feel like I belong Whether in class, church, at some event, etc you name it I don't know if it's just in my head, but I feel safer being alone I believe some people do feel this way Despite the fact that I can't even name one Maybe that's because I don't want to be Weird alone Anyway I want to share my writings when I was in high school I know no one's reading this blog but I wanna do this for the sake of my self~ So yeah Bisous, Serafina

That song kinda reminds me of myself and my previous relationship~ although I'm no longer a high schooler, I'm definitely dumb and broke Like whoa dude I was so....different. I shouldn't have sacrifice my precious time for just a person. I shouldn't have abandoned my family and friends just for the sake of that person. AND, I shouldn't have strayed further from God just because I need to please that person (a.k.a be with him 24/7). I even got a mental issue afterward. Yep. But, moral of the story YOU CAN'T GO FORCING SOMETHING IF IT'S JUST NOT RIGHT -Green Day Ah look at that beauty lol I'm still the same emo gurl :' Bisous, Serafina