Seranade!

So as you may know from my previous post, I got PTSD and I've learned so much from it. On March 2018, I was diagnosed with depression and anxiety disorder. Sebenernya, diagnosa awalnya memang bukan PTSD, tapi dua hal itu ada di PTSD, dan setelah beberapa kali konsul ke psikiater dan bicara sama orang-orang yang memang paham mental illness, I came to a conclusion that it is PTSD. How bad was it? Well, idk, I don't really want to scare people out, but... Awal pas parah-parahnya sih sampai gak bisa denger suara motor, ketukan pintu, ringtone HP. Pasti langsung susah nafas, deg-degan, keringetan, tremor, yea stuff like that. Namanya serangan panik, dan rasanya gak enak banget. Parahnya juga saat itu lagi penelitian tugas akhir dan tinggal nulis laporan. Like, hell, I don't want to redo the whole thing, lemme just do this no matter what. So yeah, setelah diagnosa awal, aku rawat inap 2 hari kayaknya, terus jeda penlit dulu, pulang ke rumah selama dua minggu. Kenapa cuma...

I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHERE TO START I'M SUPER EXCITED So on June 29th until 30th, I visited Baduy, both Dalam and Luar (Inner and Outer) for the first time in my life! It was so much fun! I arrived at Rangkas Bitung Station as my meeting point with the team. After that, we took a 1.5 ish hour trip with this minibus looking thing to this place called Ciboleger Village. We ate a bit, and had some light conversation, like yknow, asking names and stuff. But I can't really remember names that well, so I forgot everything in a heartbeat HAHA :( but I remembered the names eventually At 2 p.m, we took some pictures and started walking and I SWEAR THE FIRST FEW STEPS WAS THE HARDEST!! Our beautiful faces before the trip. There were guys too, but they didn't do pics as much lmao Maybe our bodies weren't really used to walking while carrying a lot of stuff in such a hilly environment, but after an hour it got easier (????) not really but like my heartbeat wasn't a...